Wow! How has it been over three months since I last posted. It’s been something there in the back of my mind that I wanted to do, but have been feeling very resistant to this and generally engaging in anything that’s good for me.
I’ve been caught in a binge cycle for a few weeks now and the weight is piling back on so decided that I need to take some advice that I’ve been given many times before:
Don’t wait for the motivation to come for healthy behaviours. Take action and the motivation will follow.
It’s so true, yet I’ve found it easier to follow out of desperation rather then when things aren’t so bad, yet could do with improvement if I don’t want to go down the same path again.
I prove to myself time and time again that I can’t have any binge foods in the house. I tell myself that it will be ok this time, I’ll eat in moderation and just have one, yet that has never happened and each time I feel like a failure. So I need to not put myself in that situation in the first place – I wonder if I can frame that as something I can do out of kindness towards myself rather than deprivation. To plan my food shopping and meals so I don’t even need to carry my purse with me and face the temptation to buy food at work or on the way home.
I have at least starting running again. I’ve been feeling lonely and needed to be around others, and runners are such nice encouraging people – even when I’m at the back of the group regretting whatever I binged on half an hour before.
I’m probably going to end up posting a few things at the same time now, but like I’ve said, I primarily write this blog for me, to remind myself of things I need to remember and if it helps someone else along the way, then that’s great too.
So, reminders for the next two weeks until I speak to my therapist again – it would be good to have something positive to report. I’m also having surgery in two weeks time which will mean no exercise for at least a couple of weeks so I need to break some of my unhealthy habits so they don’t become worse when running isn’t an option.
- Wake-up at the same time everyday and get out of bed so I don’t feel like a failure before the day has even started.
- Plan when I will exercise. As soon as I don’t exercise I draw conclusions about what it means and my other habits start to unravel.
- Focus on one thing at a time – e.g. focus on breaking the binge cycle, not on loosing weight. That will follow naturally.
- Put my phone away at least an hour before bed and only check the news and social media a couple of times a day.
- Remember to ask myself if there is anything constructive I can do. If so, do it, and if not park the worry.
- Get back to my routine asap if I slip – don’t write the whole day off.
- Refuse to believe that it will be like this for ever. I’m in control and have the resources and support to manage it. I am and will be ok.
- Make a plan for each week – food, exercise, admin, housework etc and stick to it.